This is my first month participating in the Golden Vlog and I am excited and nervous! I have never vlogged before and of course my first time doing it I am asked to open up about my insecurities haha. Feel free to watch the video below and to check out the other amazing posts here. Don’t judge my first vlog too much please! If you don’t want to watch the whole video you can read about it below 🙂 https://player.vimeo.com/video/141738171

What is your biggest insecurity?
I would have to say my biggest insecurity is my size. I often get people telling me how lucky I am to be so thin or people thinking I have an eating disorder. I soon realized I had to make sure to eat something around people and not go to the bathroom after I ate to help silence the thoughts. I have never had an eating disorder but being judged as if I did is just as painful. On the other hand some people constantly tell me how lucky I am or ask me what my secret is and will continue to make comments and that gets old and annoying as well.
How long have you struggled with it?
My earliest memory of being criticized so much about my size was when I was about 10 years old. So about 13 years. 
Do your friends and family know about your insecurity?
I know that some of my friends and family know but it’s not something I actively talk about. I don’t think they do just because they know I don’t have an eating disorder or anything and I have been able to overcome it pretty well. 
What do you do to overcome it?
I was lucky enough to learn at a young age that people are going to judge/hate me throughout my life and there is nothing I can do about it except control how I react to them. As long as I am comfortable and happy with myself that is all that matters. I also know that people only wonder and ask because they care enough about me to see if I need help. Thankfully I have a great support system in my life where people will not only ask but will also trust that I am being honest with them. 
What advice would you give your younger self or anyone else struggling with your insecurity?
I would tell myself to recognize that I was hurting quicker so that I could deal with the issue quicker. Also to talk about it more. It was something that I struggled with on a daily basis and even though I was pretty confident with my image it still stung a little to know that people thought I had an eating disorder. I would try to fix it myself but sometimes just talking about it with people you trust can make you relax so much easier.

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  1. So nice to meet you! I'm super glad you linked up with us so I was able to find your blog:) New follower now.

    I TOTALLY understand your insecurity, because I've had almost the exact same experience. Because I'm naturally small even though I eat a ton, people tell me I'm “too skinny”, to eat a cupcake, ask if I'm anorexic, or act envious and assume that skinny means healthy and happy, which it obviously doesn't. I've always found it quite rude despite their intentions, and has definitely caused self-esteem issues with me too. I actually wrote a few blogs about it as well, and today I just stumbled on an amazing piece from this same perspective on HuffPo. I'd be happy to share it with you or talk more on this.

    Anyway, sorry for the super long comment. Thanks for sharing your heart with us and linking up! Keep coming back and vlogging!

  2. “If you are going to let someone have a huge impact on you, then make sure it's in a positive way” Loved that!!! I have not heard truer words spoken then those right there. Not letting the negative people effect and bring you down is never an easy thing but it's worth it. Always surround yourself with people that uplift and encourage. That's my school of thought. 🙂 I loved that you vlog with us!!! I hope you enjoyed it and that you will be back!

  3. I'm so glad that you can relate! I really don't think people understand how invasive and rude those comments really can be. I would love to talk more about it and I'm glad to have made a new friend! I'm excited to continue joining in the link up 🙂

  4. I think it is so brave to open up about insecurities on your blog like this; thank you for sharing! It's important to raise awareness about this because there are people like you who are healthy and naturally small and don't need to be body shamed about it!

    xo, Chelsie @ Life with Rosie

  5. Welcome to the Golden Vlog! What a topic to dive into right away, right?! 😉

    I totally feel you on this one… I've been naturally thin (borderline scrawny when I was younger!) my entire life and have had to grit my teeth so many times when someone tells me to eat a cheeseburger. How is that supposed to make a person feel good about themselves?!

    I really loved hearing your opinion on this topic, especially since it hits so close to home for me. I love that you're learning ways to overcome your insecurity instead of letting it consume you. Way to go! Seriously!

    Thanks for linking up with us, Chandler! I can't wait to read more from you. 🙂

    P.S. YOUR OUTFIT. Killin' it in that hat.

  6. I'm so glad that you can relate! I feel like no one around me really understands the frustration that comes along with those comments. Thanks for your kind words and for stopping by 🙂 I will definitely be back!

  7. You are so gorgeous sweetie!! I hate that people make those types of jokes towards you, why are ANY OF US judged based on our bodies?!?! Ughhh! This was my first time vlogging too and I was a nervous wreck, I also talked about weight. I have tons of friends like you who can't gain weight, no matter what they do and that's just their body type, it's in the genes and that's OK! I just wish we would all love each other for our minds more than our bodies. HUGS so many hugs, I think you are awesome and beautiful!!!