Let’s be real I was disgusted. This wasn’t just a simple like oh you sneezed let me wipe your little nose spray; this was a you have a nasty cold with green boogers oozing over your face please don’t eat that kind of wipe. I may have been secretly grossed out by it but I didn’t think twice to grab a tissue and wipe his cute little nose free of green monsters. And I did it three times. Maybe it was because I love this little boy (I mean look at that cute face!) or maybe it’s because I felt responsible for cleaning it up because I was the one holding him but either way I did it!
Dakota and I have this conversation all the time. The one where you talk about who will change diapers and who will clean up throw up. I have always been a huge NO when it comes to vomit and boogers. I can handle poopy diapers all day long but a kid running around with green slime on his face – get away from me! But yesterday I realized I can handle it. Maybe I can be a good mom one day after all.
My thoughts on being a mom are simple. I’m terrified. The idea of being responsible for raising a child is intimidating. I can barely keep my house clean as it is, I don’t know how to teach someone to read or write (and what if they are right handed?!), and how do you even hold a baby? They are so tiny and fragile! I am mostly afraid of not teaching my kids strong values. The world we live in today is pretty corrupt and I only see it getting worse. I want my kids to feel confident, safe, a comfortable talking to me about anything. I want them to experience life without a computer screen, to travel the world, go to Disneyland, and grow up without any fears or struggles.
Yes I know I am being irrational and if I really thought about it I think I would be an alright mom. Thankfully I have Dakota by my side because I know he will be the best dad one day! Even with all of these fears I know that I have strong values and will (hopefully) be a good living example to my future kids. Plus the fact that I willingly wiped a kids nose yesterday (who wasn’t even my kid) is a little sign that I’m getting more and more comfortable with the idea.

34 thoughts on “Yesterday I wiped a kids nose and wasn’t completely disgusted”

  1. hahaah what a funny little (gross) sign that you are on your way to potential mommyhood! This made me laugh. Until I had my baby, I couldn't have understood that when it's your own, nothing is truly that gross.

  2. hahaah what a funny little (gross) sign that you are on your way to potential mommyhood! This made me laugh. Until I had my baby, I couldn't have understood that when it's your own, nothing is truly that gross.

  3. hahaah what a funny little (gross) sign that you are on your way to potential mommyhood! This made me laugh. Until I had my baby, I couldn't have understood that when it's your own, nothing is truly that gross.

  4. hahaah what a funny little (gross) sign that you are on your way to potential mommyhood! This made me laugh. Until I had my baby, I couldn't have understood that when it's your own, nothing is truly that gross.

  5. hahaah what a funny little (gross) sign that you are on your way to potential mommyhood! This made me laugh. Until I had my baby, I couldn't have understood that when it's your own, nothing is truly that gross.

  6. hahaah what a funny little (gross) sign that you are on your way to potential mommyhood! This made me laugh. Until I had my baby, I couldn't have understood that when it's your own, nothing is truly that gross.

  7. hahaah what a funny little (gross) sign that you are on your way to potential mommyhood! This made me laugh. Until I had my baby, I couldn't have understood that when it's your own, nothing is truly that gross.

  8. I love this and I feel the same way! My husband and I have been recently babysitting for a newborn and while some things are GROSS, and having another human that you are solely responsible for is TERRIFYING, we're starting to be comfortable with our abilities. Ah, growing up haha

  9. Just having those fears means you'll be a fantastic mom! You already love your future kids so much by wanting the best for them! When the time comes I'm sure you'll be the envy of all moms 😉

  10. Too funny. I know a bunch of people have probably already says this, but it is different when it's your kid. I felt totally unprepared and freaked out when I was pregnant with my first son. I still feel like I don't know what I'm doing most of the time, so you'll be great.

  11. That's what I keep telling myself; it will be different with my own kids. I often look at my friends parenting and just pray one day i'll be able to clean poop off the walls without cringing. Motherhood truly is a gift!

  12. Yes totally agree. Growing up can be hard but it's definitely a new experience. I keep telling our friends with new babies we need to babysit for them so that we can really figure out if we are cut out to be parents haha

  13. If you are right then I will be mom of the year haha I worry way to often! But you make a good point that I do already love my future kids 🙂 As far as been the envy of all moms, highly unlikely haha I just hope the mommy community will accept me!

  14. Hahaha I am not looking forward to all of those ridiculous mother moments. I have a feeling my definition of “gross” is going to shift a lot when cleaning up all the gross just becomes part of my daily life! You'll be a great mama one day 😉

  15. I'm a mom of four, gramma of 4, have dozens of nieces & nephews and have been a child care provider for over 20 years. I promise you, do it enough times and wiping boogers won't phase you at all any more!

  16. I am with you on being terrified for motherhood! But at the same time, I feel like when it happens I will be pretty ready. You will be such a great mom someday!

  17. I can totally relate! I know its selfish (and irrational) to not want kids because of small things but I wonder all the time how I'll fit in me time. I'm sure when the time comes we will both be fine 🙂

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