Coming home with a new baby for the first time is pretty terrifying. I knew there would be a lot of work – changing poopy diapers, staying up all night, nursing, comforting him, etc. but I didn’t have much experience with babies so I felt pretty unprepared. I wasn’t worried about delivery but bringing him home really made me anxious. Since Dakota relies on sleep to maintain his seizures I was mentally prepared to take the night shift and thankfully this kid sleeps like a champ!
The first day thankfully we had my mom to stay with us and then Dakota’s mom stayed the night. Both of us were able to get some sleep which was so nice and much needed. The next day was our first official night by ourselves and it wasn’t too bad! So far Mattix typically wakes up 2-3 times a night and he sleeps in his own crib #parentingwin. It was a little nerve wracking to have him be in his own room from the get go but we’ve made it this far.
We’ve dealt with every emotion you can think of- excitement, fear, anxiety, frustration, joy, the list goes on. I have moments where I just cry because I’m so tired and frustrated but then we have moments where I’m so overwhelmed with love that I can’t imagine how we got so lucky. My biggest challenges so far seem so frustrating in the moment but I know we are all learning and going through phases of growth and it will get better with time. Dakota has been amazing at helping me as much as he can and always making sure that I am taken care of and I can’t thank him enough for his patience. This transition hasn’t been easy, and I’m sure we will continue to have our challenges, but as long as we keep focusing on the good and communicating with one another I think we can do this parenting thing!